Leslie Heron Beauchamp |
On October 6, 1915, just one
week after spending leave in England with his sister, and a little over one week before
that sister’s birthday, Leslie Heron Beauchamp died in Ploegsteert Wood, near
Messines, Belgium. Known to his family
as “Chummie,” Beauchamp was instructing troops in the use of grenades when one malfunctioned,
killing him and a nearby officer.
Beauchamp’s sister was the author Katherine Mansfield. For the rest of her life, she was haunted
by his death.
To L.H.B. (1894
– 1915)
Last night for
the first time since you were dead
I walked with
you, my brother, in a dream.
We were at home
again beside the stream
Fringed with
tall berry bushes, white and red.
“Don’t touch
them: they are poisonous,” I said.
But your hand
hovered, and I saw a beam
Of strange,
bright laughter flying round your head.
And as you
stooped I saw the berries gleam.
“Don’t you
remember? We called them Dead Man’s Bread!”
I woke and heard
the wind moan and the roar
Of the dark
water tumbling on the shore.
Where – where is
the path of my dream for my eager feet?
By the
remembered stream my brother stands
Waiting for me
with berries in his hands…
“These are my
body. Sister, take and eat.”
--1916
What is real –
the dream or the death? The first nine
lines of Mansfield’s poem recall a dream in which a protective older sister
warns her brother against the dangers of beautiful, poisonous berries. As dreams typically unfold, the commonplace scene
is intertwined with the surreal, as her brother’s head seems haloed in “a beam/Of
strange, bright laughter.” Saint-like,
he stands before her.
The rhymes of
the poem break off and change in the tenth line, as the dreamer awakes from the
pastoral scene to a storm that echoes her distress: a moaning wind and the dark confusion of
pounding waves. Futilely, she searches
for the “path of my dream,” for a way back to the imagined world and the
comforting, resurrected presence of her dead brother. In her dream, the brother who was killed in
war waits for her, holding “Dead Man’s Bread.” With berries in his hands, he offers her communion. How can what has been so brutally taken by War be restored? It is possible to rejoin her
sibling, but only if she herself eats of death, symbolized by both the scarlet
fruit and her dead brother’s body.
The poem
beautifully and subtly gives voice to the despair of women who were left to
mourn the dead. It was neither Christian
nor proper for women to admit to suicidal thoughts, but journals and letters of
the period make clear that many longed for release and oblivion. Mansfield
channeled her grief into her writing, as her notebooks from early in 1916 show:
Ploegsteert Wood Military Cemetery |
“Now—now I want to write recollections of my own
country. Yes, I want to write about my own country till I simply exhaust my
store. Not only because it is “a sacred debt” that I pay to my country because
my brother and I were born there, but also because in my thoughts I range with
him over all the remembered places. I am never far away from them. I long to
renew them in writing…But all must be told with a sense of mystery, a radiance,
an afterglow, because you, my little sun of it, are set. You have dropped over
the dazzling brim of the world. Now I must play my part.”
After his death,
Leslie Beauchamp became a ghostly Muse for his sister: “When I am not writing I feel my brother calling me & he is not
happy. Only when I write or am in state
of writing – a state of inspiration – do I feel that he is calm.” Rest in
peace, Lt. Beauchamp and the sister who loved you.